I've Been a Bit Absent...

I feel like I've been neglecting this blog.  Soooo much.  Music and pictures are great and will continue to be a weekly thing, but....I started this to write.  And lately I haven't been doing a lot of that.  

Part of that is because I've been so busy with school (sooo much reading and stressing over my senior project, which will be started soon!) and part has been that I've just sort of had writer's block.

You know, writing is how I deal with most things when I can't do anything about them.  I vent and usually work around to accepting whatever it is.  Lately though, I've honestly been a little scared to write because for once in my life, I just don't know what to say.

So much has happened lately.

My plans for working during school this year were completely washed down the drain, leaving me with a clean slate on that topic and ideas for what to do about it that aren't ideal...but would be a source of income, which let's face it, I have to have.  I just haven't had the time to do anything about it yet.

I learned that someone I care about a lot isn't exactly on the same page, and I'm dealing with it.  Sometimes not well, but I'm getting there, and I know I'll be fine. Btw, to the friends that have been there for me....you have no idea how much it means to me.  Thank you guys so much.

Then there was yesterday, where I really didn't feel like doing anything because I realized at some point in the afternoon that it was September 10th.   For those in the blogging world that don't know (this was another one of those things that I just couldn't bring myself to write about after it happened), my grandmother, whom I've written about on here before, passed away August 10th.  It was extremely upsetting, but at the same time, she went peacefully.  My grandfather and uncle and I were there with her when it happened.  It's comforting to know that she doesn't have to suffer and deal with her limitations anymore.  I've been doing okay with it, but when I realized yesterday that it had been exactly a month since she passed, it got me a little down.

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So there.  I finally said a little bit of it.  I'm fine, and I feel a bit better now for forcing myself to write about it.  But this is why I've been somewhat absent of late.  

I promise to be a little better from now on. :)

Hopefully sometime soon I will have fresh pictures and stories of Orion for you horse people out there.  I finally found a friend here that enjoys riding and wants to go, and we may be going to the barn in the near future.  I'll definitely be taking pictures and mental notes to put on here!

Pre-finals week....GO!

Man, life really is like a roller coaster these days.

Seriously.

One minute I'm stressing like mad to try to pass a test in the hardest class ever thought up, the next I'm relaxing all weekend (or trying to) because I don't really have anything that important to do..yet.  Trying to soak up all the relaxed time I can before finals prep starts hardcore.

Then the next I'm studying like mad again for a lab final in said hardest class ever...oh and did I mention this was after stressing out about failing miserably that test I was freaking out over last week?  Then, all of us ended up with mental and emotional whiplash when the prof decided to take the better of the two test grades (the test was a semi-retest) and count it for both tests (THANK YOU GOD!).  Whiplash, but nonetheless in a good way I suppose.  Definitely can't complain since my other test grade was about 15 percentage points higher than the one I got back today.  O.o    Crazy, crazy day....

Tomorrow I get to have my last stats class of the semester, work, and make a presentation for my last Issues in the Natural Sciences class....and then go take said lab final an hour later.  Oh how I love organic chemistry (or at the moment, not).  :P

Finals start Friday, and I will be at school until May 10th in order to get all possible work study hours that I am allowed to work completed.  *sigh*  Almost there, almost there....  I just keep trying to power through it.  I've been through worse semesters by far, but all this stressing to make sure I pass organic chem is really bringing me down.  I will..not be very happy..at all..if I have to take it a 3rd time...my senior year of all times.  I will be happy to pass it with a C, if that's what it takes.  This is the only class I've ever held that low of a standard for myself in, but if it means I don't have to take it again, I'll go with it.  Whatever works!

By the time summer vacation rolls around, my friends and I will all have earned it, by far.  Everyone close to me has a hectic, crazy schedule due to more than just finals themselves right now, and none of us can wait for this semester to just be over.  The only complaint I will have will not be seeing most of them until fall.  But hey, that's why we should all be living up each moment we have right now, eh? :)